here in my head

I’m finding it hard to wrap my head around the fact that it’s the last day of the year – that in a few short hours it will be 2010. Usually, by this time, I have lists upon lists of new years resolutions, goals and hopes for the new year. But this year, I’ve given barely a thought to what I want from the new year ahead of me.

2009 was a busy year. A good year, for certain, but a busy one, full of new wonderful amazing things. A brand new niece. A brand-new-to-me (90+ years old) house. Some new, wonderful friends. 2009 was a pretty good year, to be sure. It was the year I learned to downhill ski (albeit it slowly and still, sadly, very fearfully). It was the year I learned how to really drive a stick shift, with confidence, and then did drive stick in downtown Toronto, no less. It was the year I started to really say what I feel and what I want. I’m feeling a lot more comfortable in my skin these days, and certainly a lot happier now that we live in the urban core of the city rather than the suburbs. This move that took up the best part of 2009 – thinking about selling, getting the house ready to sell, finding this place, moving in, getting the house completely rewired, etc – is also the absolute best part of this year. I feel at home here, like a part of me that was missing has now been found. My heart leaps in excitement every time I come down the stairs and survey the living/dining room. Every time, I feel like I have to pinch myself, I feel so lucky to have this cozy, warm, unique home, that is, in almost every way, what I’ve dreamt of for my home since I was young. (A turret and a second bathroom would be all that’s missing. And perhaps a conservatory…)

I am so very grateful for this past year – for the changes it brought and where we ended up because of it. I’m looking forward to seeing what 2010 has in store for us. Sure, I have a few ideas of what I’d like to see happen, but more than anything, I want to hold on to this happiness. This peace. This contented life.

Best wishes for the new year. Cheers to 2010.